I try to do that, but I think I am all over the board on this. Sometimes I take responsibility for my part, other times I take responsibility for everybody’s part and blame myself for the whole mess. This is old family stuff from being the “responsible one” and the “fixer”. Outside of my family I am likely to focus on blaming others for their part and sometimes I blame others for the whole thing. A large part of me still thinks I should be perfect. So I probably should throw the word blame and fault out of my vocabulary. I think self compassion will help all parts of my thinking about difficulties

Greatest hopes and aspirations for how I want to be in this life.
Good question.
Probably the main change that I would like to make would be to become a calmer person. I like the way that I am enthusiastic and get really happy and excited about things. But I would like to reduce my stress level when things are difficult. Calm, calm, nice and calm- that is how I would like to be in this life.
I would like to be more connected to my families and friends. I would also like to more grounded in my spirituality.

I am not a particularly adventurous person. I like my comforts of home and I am not a big lover of surprises. So in the spirit of not comparing myself with others I will consider how I can make my life more adventurous.
In my last post I wrote about a lot of things I would like to do this summer, all things that would increase my quality of life but I left out a few important things! First I am going to work on my artwork, not children’s art but my own expressive, spiritual art. Or artwork which will take me where ever it takes me. Secondly I want to visit the local art museums and also spend time at the library looking at and checking out books on the artwork of artists I love, as well as looking into the artwork of artists I know nothing about. Lastly I would like to get together with a high school art teacher I know who also works with adults and discuss my artwork with her, get some feedback and suggestions from her. Maybe see her two or three times over the summer.
I don’t know that these things are adventurous but they are exciting to me. One more thing. I want to go out dancing!
Thank you for the question!
Sending prayers out for Kevin.
Mary
PS. This is the last week of the current school year! Yay!!
PSS I think I read this question wrong, but it served me better to write about seeking adventure in my life.

Gina, I hope you are finding some ease in your life. I am feeling grateful for small simple things. The school year is over and my workload is much lighter. I do have several difficult things to deal with over the summer, but so far I have been able to feel peaceful and take one day at a time. I enjoy my tea, my cats, and the quiet and comforts in my home. How are you doing, Gina? I have not been able to keep up with this website as much as I would like to as of late.
Love and peace,
Mary