daughter, niece, sister, friend, wife, mother, grandmother and great grandmother! these are all names I have lived. Teacher, carer, nurse, partner, lover! so many! who am I? now? I have let go of many of these but struggle to release carer and nurse . I need to be my own carer and nurse myself back to health. To nurture myself is difficult for me as I have always cared for others and was taught to always put others first! I realise that part of my pilgrimage is over ~ I am open to the rest of my life.

I am 74 and have just left my marriage because of emotional abuse. So wholeheartedness is now about me and my space, time and life.
It is strange but welcome, sad but wholesome. I am putting my whole heart into the present moment and remaining in a sense of gratitude. Sadness and grief sneak in at times and I claw back to the present moment as soon as I notice them. So wholeheartedness for me is being present for myself and my requirements and trusting the Universe completely as I have very few physical things, no partner and no ‘view’ of the future. But I have gratitude and faith.