I will want to spend the day with the people I love Stanley, Grace Benjamin and Made. I will tell them how much I love them and I will ask for forgiveness for all the things I have done wrong, all the times I was hurtful to them and I will want to go out of this world holding their hands and for them to be with me as I leave. I will reach out to the Archangel Gabriel because he will lead me through the tunnel of death to Christ on the other side.

When I learn to be comfortable in my own skin, when I am comfortable with the way I look on photos, when I accept that I do not always make the right decisions, when I accept that I sometimes say the wrong thing even with the best intentions, when I can look at myself in the mirror and accept who I am then I can start to be my best self in GOD.

To do better next time. Not to make the same mistake. That time heals everything.

I want to commit to a year without striving. The minute I catch myself striving and reaching out to do things in my own strength I will stop. I want to commit to staying with GOD in this moment and in this time like Brother Lawrence doing nothing not even picking up an autumn leave without GOD.

I think by making a special effort and to go out of my way to say something kind and uplifting to somebody.

My beloved husband Stanley my family my children my grandchild my mind … A priest to serve the sacraments, a church, clean water, clean air to breathe.

The messenger group with my children. I love that we can instantly share photos and experiences and a laugh. I love that I can see my son Benjamin active online and pop in and say ‘ Hi Benna” and he can say: ” Hi mom I love you mom”. That is so precious to me.

Waiting for Godot

My wonderful husband Stanley supports me in every possible way to be my best self. Recently when I said that I have a desire to make a lay commitment to the Cistercian way of life he supported me in every possible way. I could never ever ask for anything more or better or more support. He is just lovely! A saintly man … Stanley!

I will connect better, deeper and more. I will remain hidden and draw out the other. I will throw a cloak of dignity over my brother.

Today I give up my need to always be right. I am not perfect. I make mistakes. I know I always try to do the best I can but so do other people and I need to see that. My ego will shrink for a start and I will give others room to grow and to shine. That will be a good thing.

I am so grateful that I can walk, that I can see, that I can hear, that I can talk, that my balance is right, that my heart is pumping that I can breathe. I am so grateful that I have a job and that I can pay for a little apartment with a warm, clean bed to sleep in every night. How good is GOD! God is good, all the time, all the time, all the time!

My grandmother. She was so full of life, so full of faith and goodness. Her love for the garden and for growing things laid the foundation in me for the love of growing and planting and she was the first missionary in my life. I saw from her how she cared for others, for the marginalised for the poor and how she loved all..

What really matters to me is my faith and my family. Stanley my wonderful husband, Grace and Benjamin, Made, my granddaughter. To be safe from stress and harm and nasty people and nasty comments matters to me. To have a clean bed to sleep in in a safe place matters to me. To be able to breathe clean air matters to me, to be able to take a walk in nature matters to me. To have clean drinking water matters to me. To be able to pray matters to me.

I have kindness and gentleness and a great love for the environment. I can practice non-violence to make amends for the violence in society today.

With kindness, with gentleness, with silence. The world is so polluted with noise, with materialism and in fact with every kind of pollution. I can help by accepting my status in life without striving and always wanting more for myself and for my family.

I am grateful for my brain. That my brain is remembering names, information, faces and places. What an incredible miracle. Lord thank you for that.