My most limiting belief is that I don’t have/earn enough money. Sadly, this belief was just as strong when I was earning at the height of my career as it has been at the lowest point; when my health impeded my ability to work in the same capacity. Since childhood, I understood that I was not “good at saving” – my sister’s and I would get our weekly allowance; they would always manage to keep some of theirs in their piggy bank….mine was immediately spent on candy and comics!
This belief is so deeply ingrained in my thinking that I’ve been aware of it and trying to correct it for YEARS. At times I manage to set this baggage down and things go better, financially speaking. But I always pick it back up. And that leads to another limiting-no- CRIPPLING belief: that I am weak.
Intellectually I understand that these are false narratives…And it’s why I’m here, in this space, hoping to heal this twisted relationship I have with money. Last night I read an enlightening article I found on this site about the power we have assigned to money…it was yet another beautiful gift;that article….I intend to read and reflect on it some more. I also know that it takes a commitment to practice…. to strengthen my attitude of gratitude.
So this is what I can do; right now…this morning:
I am so grateful for this space, and for the beautiful person who suggested I visit…And for the peace, comfort, and courage I’ve felt here. Thanks be to God:)

I view my life first and foremost as an adventure. To paraphrase an author I admire, ‘an adventure through the jungles of time and space.’
Within this adventure, I think there are tasks, missions, exercises in futility, lessons, comedies, dramas, wins, losses, AHA! moments; ametuer moves….and on and on it goes, until my soul knows it has completed this journey, and may rest awhile in bliss til another adventurous dream is hatched.
Another way I’ve come to understand-or at least view- my life is that I am (we are) the product of God’s desire to experience love manifest. So; I am (we are) God’s adventure, inasmuch as I am ( we are)pieces of God.

My father once told me; when I turned 20 years old, to ” always keep the music playing in the background of my life.” He wrote this in a birthday card to me. It was his way of reminding me that there is joy in everything; that life is a celebration and that happiness is our natural state. I’ve never forgotten his words of wisdom and more than once in the years since I have marvelled at how God spoke through my Dad that day.
10 months earlier I was the victim of a violent crime. The assailant had not been caught, and I was existing this state of suspension….a feeling of constant dread, all the color and sound drained from daily life. His words that day gave me permission to feel happiness again.

These days, I am most “in the flow” when teaching…while not every lesson or lecture engages my students, there is such joy when I see them “getting it” – when they ask questions, when they want to know more, or share their own experience in relation to the topic at hand. It is an honor and a priveledge to have an impact on future health care professionals…but even more than that, since the majority of my students are young women; I strive to empower them every day to be strong, confident and able to provide for themselves, to love themselves and know their worth.
When I am a part of those things, I am in the flow.