Malag, I feel the same way. The honesty is astounding. It takes a lot of courage to speak so frankly and I’m honoured to be “present”.
My biggest struggle has to do with a deep, deep loneliness. I have thought about this a lot, and prayed, and tried to connect with others, but I seem to be cut from a different sort of cloth. Not many would guess this about me, either. I have a job in a “helping profession”, where I speak to people all the time. I’m kind of a social introvert so I manage in public, but I feel like a free-floating satellite.
Like, one of these days I’ll drift away and no one will even know I’m gone. It’s very painful.
So…what opportunity? I guess I feel like I need to look up. To grab hold of hope, and to keep moving forward. Like Karen, that space feels vast and unknown. But it’s better than staying where I am.