Thank you sweeties for your thoughtful words and I shall respond tomorrow <3

I am grateful for a day of starting out feeling good and then taking a tumultuous turn when I drove into town to drop off my brother a gift for his Nepal retreat. It put in me contact with fear, unknowing, distrust for a glimpse and allowed a beautiful opportunity to place my hand on my heart focusing on this moment, this moment, this moment and it lightened. I stayed with it, wondering if I should turn around to the safety of my home – and I realized everything is it as should be and the moment is lovely just as it is, to hug it, cry, and just be. I believe it may have been due to the obscenely large raw garlic clove I ate just prior that was a past trauma experience of taking niacin. Regardless of evaluating the who's, hows, whys, and whats – it was an opportunity to breath and breath and be ok with whatever arose. I am grateful for this experience.

I enjoyed some sensational spring rolls and a sweet, short walk with Jack bear. I am contemplating the antibiotics that sit in my cupboard from the doctors visit Friday and shall see what the morning holds. I went to the store and instead of buying more emergenc, I went for tons of fresh fruit that smells just divine – how fantastic this is to have such availability and all the people that make this a possibility and to be able to afford such a luxury.

I leave you with this poem from Tara Brach's 2017 retreat:Allow

By Danna Faulds

There is no controlling life.

Try corralling a lightning bolt,

containing a tornado. Dam a

stream and it will create a new

channel. Resist, and the tide

will sweep you off your feet.

Allow, and grace will carry

you to higher ground. The only

safety lies in letting it all in –

the wild and the weak; fear,

fantasies, failures and success.

When loss rips off the doors of

the heart, or sadness veils your

vision with despair, practice

becomes simply bearing the truth.

In the choice to let go of your

known way of being, the whole

world is revealed to your new eyes.

With love to you and gratitude for your kindness <3 Blessings to our magical world. xx

I am grateful to have caught the flu – it has really allowed me the opportunity to slow way down in everything. I have taken time from practices, enjoyed the mindfulness summit, walks in the forest have become sloth-like, and the bear is every full of joy <3 He has been prowling the yard with the perfect spot for his bone, gracefully tilling my dormant perennial gardens. I shall post the photo I took soon. I also caught up on the last of the Xmas movies from the library – lucky me two more randomly came in the first day of my bout of gunk 🙂

I am grateful for hot, spicy soup, natures antibiotics of raw garlic, apple cider vinegar, jalapeño, chinese herbs, ginger, and doses of hot, hot tea! I see my doctor tomorrow and will be a welcome treat to have a check up as my stitch scars are a bit cranky from this six pack I am developing during this time 😉

Grateful for the warm weather and doses of sun on my face. I did wake up in the middle night to med up and saw a glimpse of the beautiful trifecta moon magic *** Tonight the sky was covered in pink clouds – a bit of cotton candy spun. And hot baths and clean clothes – such beautiful luxuries.

Sweet, loving wishes to you and our amazing world <3 xx

So lovely to read your posts this evening and the magical moments happening in your world from Cintia sewing too big pants and being captured by a beautiful moment (when I was a teenager I attempted to make a pillow by hand – it was simply awful 🙂 My sewing skills never quite flourished….. Aine enjoying some hygge time, which Diane will be delighted to share in with you and I do hope your headache has relinquished! Erich finding joy in comedy and healing with your partner – I hope you explore this avenue of comedy again! Ose’s beautiful nature photo! Ursula and your shamanic journey you are on and for sharing this! Anna – I hope your headache has subsided and thank you for always taking time in your day to respond to the many gratitude posts; I always feel love when I read your words! Nancy – thank you for the giggles of bear and the gift of cookies – I am dearly fond of you too my friend!

My forearms struggle, but there are so many body parts that feel amazing! Jack bear – sweet Nancy – Jack and bear are one in the same 🙂 Thank you for everyone for such thoughtful well-wishes; I am grateful to all of you and for all of you being so vulnerable to share in your joys, your pains, your beautiful places, and your endearing experiences <3

Kevin, I thought of you last night as I visited my brother who just got a rowing machine. Though I imagine not the same as the real thing, I pretended what it must be like rowing on a beautiful lake yelling (as I probably would silly nothingness with the crew of terms that would drive them bananas 😉

Jack bear enjoyed a rather long jog today that my innards weren't quite on board with – but I just can't seem to say no when it comes to his happiness. To see him enjoying life so deliciously on the urban trail, nestled amongst the pines and mountains, and this beautiful day visit from the moon was just a slice of heaven <3

I am grateful to visit with my brother yesterday who means the world to me and I am so excited for his upcoming 1st retreat to Nepal next month. He truly is inspiring – I wish he could see this in himself as he struggles with the dark PTSD that has recently reared its' teeth – but I know he just will make it through and it will be the most beautiful thing for him to give the past the honoring it deserves, but not the control.

Grateful to come home tonight to shiny sparkly crystals from my two small friends who left such a thoughtful surprise on my porch <3 These boys are just a loving light in my life along with their mamma and pappa; I am truly blessed to have such sweet friends and family in my life <3

Thank you for being here, for being you. Loving wishes to you and expanding such love to our beautiful world <3

I will be on a bit less as I heal my forearms that are oozing sensational pain, and thank you for kindness as I may not get to respond to your kind words for a bit of time. It is just sweet to come here this night and go down memory lane with Aine of shows of I Dream of Jeanie and Gilligans Island 🙂 I am so happy to hear that your news Cintia is not as bad as you thought, and I do so hope this pain you are experiencing subsides soon. Sylvie – such a lovely companion to be by your side during the flu; I hope you are on the tail end of things and feeling better. Nancy your sweet rocks are so uplifting. And to all the other lovelies, thank you for sharing your stories and experiences; they are lovely to read.

Jack and I enjoyed some mudskating in the forest today – beautiful sun and moon out under a canopy of ponderosa’s. I am finding that sticking to pavement is easier on his limp, but it is hard when he so wants to be out in the forest. A treat to watch two dogs play so wonderfully and bear cheering them on 🙂 He dug up his bone from the butcher several times today for new places to house. He is incredibly gentle in this process – typically a couple laps around the yard carrying it in his mouth, trying to find unfrozen ground or a spot in the garden nestling it under snow with his snout.

Lovely visit with dear friends this night who also brought me the surprise porch gift of home baked cookies delight 🙂 YUM. I do hope the eldest boy is feeling better when the morrow arrives.

Lastly, delicious yawns – the ones that are so big that scrunch your face and turn squinty eyes into smile 🙂 A bit of heaven.

Earth 2 on Netflix is sensational if you get a chance.

Loving wishes to you and may you feel joy, health, and abundant love <3 and our delightful planet <3

Such a lovely snowy stroll after a very difficult day with Jack bear <3 His limp was a bit absent this night and I am so happy for him! He is enthusiastically barking outside and though his bark has become louder prob due to being slightly hearing impaired (Well MAYBE A LOT….) I am so happy I am graced with all the moments I get with him! Tonight he tried to join a jogger when we hit the pavement 🙂

Listening to Jewel's story on the Mindfulness Summit Monday was just beautiful. To go through so much in life, as many of us do. What I took away from the talk is you don't have to do life perfectly. You do life the best you can and embrace the wobbly bits perhaps just as much as the joy. I look forward to accessing Eckart's discussion on Kelly on the neuroscience of compassion. These are free through Sounds True if you get a chance!

Warm, loving wishes to you from a magical Ponderosa Pine forest and much love to our sensational world <3

Hi sweetie Aine! My arms are congested – how ironic as my whole upper body has joined in symphony of this goopy dance 🙂 My hands though continue to get better – my acupuncturist has magical hands – and hoping one more round means I can bypass having needles put in my arms. They are a bit locked up as my jaw did. This job of mine needs to be revised 🙂

I shall have more spicy soup today – I made my version of jalapeño lemongrass soup and it is a kick to thinning the gunk 😉

How are you dear friend? xx

Lovely THenry, thank you for your work in the medical field and the hearts you have touched <3 I hope you continue to receive such love from your medical team, but I do agree with you the healing power of prayer, poem, love from friends/family is something medicine can't just bottle. I have held off another day on antibiotics, though grateful I have them but just trying to give my body a bit of space to do its' magic. It may take a bit more time if I am able to do without western medicine, but that is ok – I shall be patient.

I hope you continue to find healing in each moment and may you always feel surrounded by beauty dear friend <3