Maybe, in the deepest part of my heart, the most important thing is that I am as God wants.
The visible consequence is my unconditional love, though not perfect, for my family, for a honest life towards others and the environment.
But also my parents, my relatives, my friends, my little disabled cousin, my work…so many things are important if I live with gratitude, and I don’t consider everything as an entitlement.
Now I am trying to be more patient, and to listen with an attention more focused on people speaking with me. I feel something like a call inside me, and this inner voice suggests me that I am walking ahead on a worthy path.

I have never sufficiently pondered that I can freely give something that I received as a gift, from God, or from the Universe, or from Nature.
Smile, kindness, resilience… a not bad skill to cook good recipes….
a good skill with writing (in my language ????).
I grew up with an education that had the presumption to prevent oneself’ s glorification….and with the output that a lot of people got a low self esteem and a lot of talents are buried.
There is a difference between the focus on success and the courage to uncover my skills in front of people ( and it is possible that people need what I have).
But it is still a work in progress, even if I am not so young….

“Remember, awareness is curative, however it is behavior that cures”. I found this quote in the e-course ” A fierce and enduring Gratitude”.
I don’t know if I am actually living more gratefully than some years ago. Maybe I need a surplus of behaviour. I am not so tenacious in journaling, though I always visit this site, and I know that it helps me.
But there are days when I am overwhelmed by my past, and I feel anguish, even anger. Maybe Aine posted in Gratitude Lounge the best advice for me. It means that now I picture myself as a child, and I give me a lot of cuddles, and with a tender and soft voice I say to myself that all is good, that I am nice and good, and I tell a poem and sing a song, a calming song.