I am taking a course right now and I wanted to share this poem which I feel cherishes life’s journey.

The clearing

I am clearing a space
here, where the trees stand back.
I am making a circle so open
the moon will fall in love
and stroke these grasses with her silver.

I am setting stones in the four directions,
stones that have called my name
from mountaintops and riverbeds, canyons and mesas.
Here I will stand with my hands empty,
mind gaping under the moon.

I know there is another way to live.
When I find it, the angels
will cry out in rapture,
each cell of my body
will be a rose, a star.

If something seized my life tonight,
if a sudden wind swept through me,
changing everything,
I would not resist.
I am ready for whatever comes.

But I think it will be
something small, an animal
padding out from the shadows,
or a word spoken so softly
I hear it inside.

It is dark out here, and cold.
The moon is stone.
I am alone with my longing.
Nothing is happening
but the next breath.

A higher road is to actually understand what the word forgiveness means.
What is forgiveness?
“Forgiveness recognizes what you thought your brother did to you has not occurred. It does not pardon sins and make them real. It sees there was no sin. And in that view are all your sins forgiven. What is sin, except a false idea about God’s Son? Forgiveness merely sees its falsity, and therefore lets it go. What then is free to take its place is now the Will of God.”
A Course in Miracles- workbook

Feelings come and go like the clouds in the sky. If I don’t like how you I’m feeling I can wait a minute .
The same holds true for any type of emotions or feelings.
Carol was talking about Buddhist teachings. Right thinking says we let go and stop labeling all of our emotions as “good” or “bad” rather we allow space between our feelings by not clinging to them. This helps to free up the grasping mind.
How I behave due to a feeling is my choice so, yes, I would have behaved differently often, in that I would try practice grace. Right thinking is grace. It’s letting go of the egos grasping mind and allowing grace in.

10 positive things about my ex husband of 20 years sending me a love text meant for his new girlfriend, yesterday.
1. Lol, it’s funny! ( Iwhich wasn’t funny when I first read it obviously! Super painful!)
2. It made me reflect on anger and sadness. I have thechoice to decide how to react. (This is an opportunity to heal this wound.)
3. After being shocked I noticed the “Watcher” and made a choice, by the end of the day, to wish him well. This took a lot of, what’s the word? Searching within to drive into a place I’ve been hiding from.
4. I let go!
5.. I want happiness for all beings.
6. The world doesn’t revolve around me and I didn’t need to view the situation as an attack.
7. It’s an opportunity for me to have closure to an open wound starting to heal.
8. It’s mind traing at its best! The perfect moment to step back and feel whatever comes and allow it in.
9. Appreciation for being free of a illusion.
10. We are both moving on. I can forgive and love myself and not look outside myself for love! Wow! What a lesson!
This awful thing, or what I at first perceived to be awful, by labeling it so turned out to be another way to say YES to life!

Right now I’m frustrated with what seems like being stuck in a situation that has no positive outcome.
That in itself is a limited belief. Thinking and seeing only uncertainty is a limited thought.
Maybe my limited belief that chage and lack of control are bad is something to let go of today?
A good place to start today is for me to really take a huge step back from all of these “problems” and let go.
Divorce and the what feels like a landslide because of it doesn’t have to be.
I’m just not sure how to do it. How to stop wanting to want everything and everyone to be ok. It’s like hanging on the end of a rope holding on for dear life.