Daily Question, May 23 How has a change in my attitude or perspective transformed a situation? 41 Reflections Share Click here to cancel reply.Please log in or Create a Profile to post a comment. Notify me when someone replies to my comment via e-mail. Shelly7 years agoShellyMy son took his own life 2 months ago today. One night about 2 weeks after it happened I was laying awake and had an interesting experience. I wrote it down and posted to facebook::: "Almost everyone asks how I am doing. I am doing well -- and that’s the truth. 90% of the time I feel just like I always did – an ordinary person, living an ordinary life, doing ordinary things. But the rest of the time – the other 10% -- I feel as if I have swallowed a large, jagged piece of gl... My son took his own life 2 months ago today. One night about 2 weeks after it happened I was laying awake and had an interesting experience. I wrote it down and posted to facebook::: “Almost everyone asks how I am doing. I am doing well — and that’s the truth. 90% of the time I feel just like I always did – an ordinary person, living an ordinary life, doing ordinary things. But the rest of the time – the other 10% — I feel as if I have swallowed a large, jagged piece of glass. And there is no way to ever get it out. And … maybe … I don’t want to get it out. Because it is valuable to me — it awakens things inside of me. Like tonight—it’s 1:30 in the morning and I am laying here with my piece of glass. But I am not thinking about Brieson, I am thinking about YOU: all of YOU. All of the people who reached out to us. All the people who ran (ran!) to us . Who did so, so many things. Those things that you might have felt were insufficient or awkwardly offered are the very luminous things that rise up inside of me and get me through these dark moments — the moments that you will never see. I said that I feel just like I always did, but that is perhaps not quite accurate. Because I carry glass around inside of me now, I can never be the same person I was. But instead of creating scars, instead of wounding me, tonight I realize this glass may actually be illuminating. Tonight I see you as I never have before, your goodness, your radiance, the gift YOU are to me. You are magnified in my eyes – because of the broken glass.” I have suffered a great loss, but when I notice (focus on) the dozens and dozens of good things people have done for me, it overwhelms me with pure joy. Although the situation did not change, I changed. Read More7 Reply Kevin7 years agoKevinI am praying and holding you in my heart, Shelly. I am terribly sorry for the loss of your son, Brieson. Having cared for and worked with many others who have lost loved ones in similar ways, I can say that you are on a long and tender walk here, a new journey that takes time, which can feel both like a balm and an irritant from one day to the next. I hope that you continue to seek support from those around you, and in this space. You are correct that some things will never be the same again, bu... I am praying and holding you in my heart, Shelly. I am terribly sorry for the loss of your son, Brieson. Having cared for and worked with many others who have lost loved ones in similar ways, I can say that you are on a long and tender walk here, a new journey that takes time, which can feel both like a balm and an irritant from one day to the next. I hope that you continue to seek support from those around you, and in this space. You are correct that some things will never be the same again, but most discover that a day does come, down the road, when you have arrived at a new normal. It never diminishes the loss but it does feel like a better place. I pray that you will get there too with time. Read More0 Reply Antoinette7 years agoAntoinetteI’m so sorry for your loss Shelly. I cannot say I can imagine your suffering. I send you loving kindness and compassion. Thank you for sharing this heartbreaking life tragedy. 0 Reply Aine7 years agoAineThis is heart-wrenching as well as beautiful. Thank you for your openness in sharing. Sending you a virtual hug. May peace comfort your heart. 0 Reply grateful sea7 years agograteful seaOh, Shelly, as I read your post my heart wants to run to you, so sorry I am for your great loss. I am deeply moved by your perspective of this loss as a shard of glass inside that does not scar but that illuminates the Love all around you. Peace, peace, peace to you. 0 Reply Palm7 years agoPalmTear rolling on my face, I am so sorry for your loss and moved by your generosity in understanding that people around you must be feeling they don’t know how to help, yet are reaching out the best way they can. Praying for Mercy Shelly, and gentleness to yourself and for that light to keep shining for you 0 Reply kathleen7 years agokathleenI am so sorry for the loss of your son, Shelly. May you continue to be uplifted by angels everywhere, carrying you and comforting you and blessing you. 0 Reply Nancy7 years agoNancyChanging the way I viewed my children, changed the way I parented them. I still get lost sometimes in the old ways, but a shift in perspective to view their life experience the way that I view my life experience, from an adult perspective, has given me space to be patient, space to forgive, space to love and space to learn more about them from them. They (and all children) are the beauty that can grown into change for this world. 2 Reply Aine7 years agoAineWhen I was first diagnosed with Late Stage Lyme after twenty-five years of no answers, my reaction was that Lyme = suffering, therefore Lyme = bad. Both one of my practitioners as well as my pastoral counselor suggested to me that I look at the Lyme as Teacher instead of Enemy. It changed my whole relationship with the disease and my progress in healing from it. 5 Reply grateful sea7 years agograteful seaDear Aine, I am also living with Late Stage Lyme and I find your recent sharings on this subject here so helpful. Thank you for your openness. It calls for vulnerability, which is a new practice and a distinct challenge for me. 0 Reply Aine7 years agoAineThank you. The process and journey of healing from Lyme changes us, that’s for sure. Gratefulness helps that be a change for the better! 1 Reply Ben7 years agoBenI find myself at a loss for words today. Reading about the attack in England and all the feelings it stirred up is with me right now, and concern for what it seems to mean about the world we're in, with conflict and oppression and division and isolation being so rampant. I'm feeling what "grateful sea" wrote about how we can be the peace we wish to see in the world, and come from a place of being primarily, letting doing flow from there. This feels like a profound shift for me. Also, I f... I find myself at a loss for words today. Reading about the attack in England and all the feelings it stirred up is with me right now, and concern for what it seems to mean about the world we’re in, with conflict and oppression and division and isolation being so rampant. I’m feeling what “grateful sea” wrote about how we can be the peace we wish to see in the world, and come from a place of being primarily, letting doing flow from there. This feels like a profound shift for me. Also, I felt a little overwhelmed by all the compassionate responses to my post about dealing with illness, so I didn’t get a chance to respond to everyone, but I wanted to say it moved me deeply and I appreciate peoples’ thoughtfulness with all of my heart. Hope everyone is taking care out there! <3 Read More5 Reply Amor fati7 years agoAmor fatiLast year I found myself alone on two canes and with a recently broken rib. The pain was bad....I could control it with shallow breathing while awake, but in my sleep I'd take a deep breath and wake up screaming. My friend and closest neighbor was out of the country and..... in my opinion .......not sending me any support...emailing infrequently and not voicing the proper words of sympathy and encouragement. I lashed out at her, causing her to accuse me of manipulation and coercion. Finally... Last year I found myself alone on two canes and with a recently broken rib. The pain was bad….I could control it with shallow breathing while awake, but in my sleep I’d take a deep breath and wake up screaming. My friend and closest neighbor was out of the country and….. in my opinion …….not sending me any support…emailing infrequently and not voicing the proper words of sympathy and encouragement. I lashed out at her, causing her to accuse me of manipulation and coercion. Finally, through prayer and meditation I realized it was my expectations that were getting me in trouble. I could not ask my friend to give me something she did not posses. This changed everything….the anger and resentment slipped away as my perception changed. With less stress, physical pain lessened and I very slowly healed. Now I’m still on two canes, barely able to walk, but the rib has healed and my friendship is stronger than ever….based on kindness in word and action ….not on needy demands. More generally I learned, once again, that reliance on a single person for all ones needs does not work. I am lucky to have a number of friends who each supply with their own brand of support. I am blessed. Read More4 Reply KC7 years agoKCYesterday I met a young man taking a small, 14 week old rescue puppy for a walk. The young man was very tender, gentle and patient with the puppy, as he encouraged it to find the courage to accept my small gesture of friendship in the form of a bisquit. The man believed the puppy had been mistreated in it's young life, likely by a male. His intention was to offer tremendous love and safety, and to socialize the puppy to be open to people and the world. As I slowed down and engaged wit... Yesterday I met a young man taking a small, 14 week old rescue puppy for a walk. The young man was very tender, gentle and patient with the puppy, as he encouraged it to find the courage to accept my small gesture of friendship in the form of a bisquit. The man believed the puppy had been mistreated in it’s young life, likely by a male. His intention was to offer tremendous love and safety, and to socialize the puppy to be open to people and the world. As I slowed down and engaged with the young man and puppy, I found an open, gentle, trusting and kind energy within myself. If/ as I can find that gentle place, and the courage to reside in and live from that place, my desire is to bring a greater tenderness to those I meet. I am hopeful to find practices, community and supports to walk that more gentle path. Grateful for this online community. ????????????????????… Read More6 Reply Carol7 years agoCarolHi KC, Thanks so much for sharing this story from your life. It is enriching. Carol 0 Reply KC7 years agoKCThanks Carol. 0 Reply Aine7 years agoAineThe similarities on how abused organisms heal, what they need to do so, is astonishing, really. Love is the core of everything. 0 Reply KC7 years agoKCThanks Aine. Yes. Love. A lifetime journey to practice and learn it seems! ???????????? … 0 Reply grateful sea7 years agograteful seaThe simple phrase, “be the change you want to see in the world,” comes to mind. It offers a 180 degree shift in perspective that is transforming the way I go about fulfilling my purpose in life. I have had the great blessing to spend the last year living and serving at an ashram. Much time spent in silence, meditation, prayer. Bringing about for me a shifting perspective. From “doing” to “being.” From focusing on the world (and what specifically I could “do” to make it a bet... The simple phrase, “be the change you want to see in the world,” comes to mind. It offers a 180 degree shift in perspective that is transforming the way I go about fulfilling my purpose in life. I have had the great blessing to spend the last year living and serving at an ashram. Much time spent in silence, meditation, prayer. Bringing about for me a shifting perspective. From “doing” to “being.” From focusing on the world (and what specifically I could “do” to make it a better place) to focusing on embodying (or “being”) the peace within which is my true nature. Now as I begin moving back out into the wider external world, it is my prayer that “peace is every step.” Read More4 Reply Carol7 years agoCarolI hear you. I wrote this poem several years ago. The Buck Stops Here By Carol Ann Conner God, You are not a Being. You are Being it’s self, ever faithful, ever present, in my joy and my sorrow. Your vulnerability humbles me beyond belief and at times, leaves me lonely and afraid. You see, I’ve come to know my choices matter. They either nurture or destroy the gift of life, for You have made us all Creator and I don’t want that responsibility! Why don’t You c... I hear you. I wrote this poem several years ago. The Buck Stops Here By Carol Ann Conner God, You are not a Being. You are Being it’s self, ever faithful, ever present, in my joy and my sorrow. Your vulnerability humbles me beyond belief and at times, leaves me lonely and afraid. You see, I’ve come to know my choices matter. They either nurture or destroy the gift of life, for You have made us all Creator and I don’t want that responsibility! Why don’t You change the game? Just fix everything? “It’s not possible,” You say. “I have to change. It’s called free will,” You say. “Become the peace I seek.” “Share it with all I meet.” “It’s an inside job,” You say. “It begins and ends with me.” Read More1 Reply grateful sea7 years agograteful seaThank you, Carol, for sharing your lovely poem. That is the essence, “Become the peace I seek. Share it with all I meet.” 0 Reply KC7 years agoKCGrateful Sea, Thanks so much for this reflection on your journey at the Ashram, and the shift it is offering to embody peace. I find it very hopeful and helpful, as the path to inner peace can seem so elusive in daily life. The shift you name seems to take the edge off the cultural pressure to 'do' and to make the world a better place, sometimes at a questionable cost. I appreciate your reminder of the true value of finding peace in our heart and actions, and leaving the results to th... Grateful Sea, Thanks so much for this reflection on your journey at the Ashram, and the shift it is offering to embody peace. I find it very hopeful and helpful, as the path to inner peace can seem so elusive in daily life. The shift you name seems to take the edge off the cultural pressure to ‘do’ and to make the world a better place, sometimes at a questionable cost. I appreciate your reminder of the true value of finding peace in our heart and actions, and leaving the results to the Great Mystery. ????????????????… KC Read More1 Reply grateful sea7 years agograteful seaThank you, KC, for your thoughtful response. It helps me. Yes, that’s it! What I was trying to get at in the end, “leaving the results to the Great Mystery.” 0 Reply KC7 years agoKC????????????????????… 0 Reply Deb7 years agoDebIn my life I find that if I ask myself “what does Love do? (since God is Love)” there is an attitudinal shift that is helpful in whatever situation I am in. 4 Reply Carol7 years agoCarolBy Grace I’m Saved Good Morning, A gentle rain has been falling here this morning. With all the severe thunderstorms, tornados wrapped in rain, potential flooding that has been sweeping across our country, I know we are blessed here in my little-sleepy-southern town to be experiencing a gentle-life-giving rain. Thankfully, it was not raining late Sunday when my doorbell rang and I could here my neighbor calling my name frantically as I opened the door. She had been hearing water running ... By Grace I’m Saved Good Morning, A gentle rain has been falling here this morning. With all the severe thunderstorms, tornados wrapped in rain, potential flooding that has been sweeping across our country, I know we are blessed here in my little-sleepy-southern town to be experiencing a gentle-life-giving rain. Thankfully, it was not raining late Sunday when my doorbell rang and I could here my neighbor calling my name frantically as I opened the door. She had been hearing water running and decided to investigate. Another neighbor is on vacation and she had just discovered that water was pouring out of the water heater pipe on the side of the vacationing neighbor’s house. Our water heaters sit in a large bucket–type pan in the attic and she knew that something had happened to the other neighbor’s water heater. It had to be leaking or water wouldn’t be coming out of that pipe. I called the vacationing neighbor but she said that no one had a key to her house. I got permission from her to have the city turn off the water to the house. I called the emergency utilities number and they promised to send someone out to stop the flow of water which we knew from experience (We live in an HOA and our own units have the same floor plan an utility hookups.) could be over-flowing onto the attic floor and finding its way into her bedroom closet. While I made telephone calls, my neighbor was down on all fours clearing an overgrowth of grass away from the water main. I was concerned we would find a nest of spiders and she was lamenting the possibility of confronting a snake when we opened the lid. I realized that I was running around out there in my pajamas and she was kneeling on the ground in white pants. Have you ever tried to remove grass stains from white pants? While we waited for the city utilities on-call person and his magic tool necessary to turn the water valve off, my neighbor, who was still frantically pulling grass away from the water-closet lid, told our other neighbor Johnnie who by then was on scene, “This is the most excitement Carol and I have had for months!” Johnnie’s face said it all. These two broads have this under control. I think I’ll just go to the house. What else could he say? I’ve been home from my sojourn in New Mexico for two months and with the exception of watching my resident Mourning Doves, the replanting of my herb and flower garden, and cleaning 5 months of cobwebs and dust from my home, not much has happened around here and I must admit, I’m easily bored. Doing our best to help a neighbor gave us a sense of purpose but doing it together gave us a sense of belonging. The longer I live, the more I believe that the best definition for God is Grace. God is the glue. Sometimes, it’s sticky and messy. Sometimes, it’s warm and fuzzy but when it’s boring, it’s a red flag. My dear-primitive-Baptist friend and neighbor, whose theology I do not share, often says profound things. She and I were in the moment on Sunday, dealing with the situation together. When I think about attempting to deal with that situation alone, I feel overwhelmed and had that been the case, I have no doubt, I would have done what needed doing but I would have fallen in a heap afterwards, totally exhausted. But working with my neighbor, sharing and caring for our vacationing neighbor, left me energized, left me thankful. Since I returned home, I’ve been isolating myself. The doorbell is not always going to ring. I have to reach out. I have to build community. It’s the EGO that gets bored. It Edges God Out. It feels victimized and if we are lucky, it get’s angry enough to surrender to the flow of Grace. There is a lot of energy in anger and it can be fruitful when we own it and give it to God. By Grace I am saved. Read More5 Reply Aine7 years agoAineI love your point of how working on the crisis together left you energized instead of overwhelmed. As the saying goes, “Many hands make light work.” This is especially true of things with an emotional component. We all need someone to walk alongside us sometimes, like it says in Ecclesiastes 4:9-11. 0 Reply grateful sea7 years agograteful seaHi Carol, I appreciate your story, told with compassion and a flair of humor! You are a good neighbor anyone would be fortunate to have. May your day be blessed with connections. 0 Reply kathleen7 years agokathleenA few situations come to mind when things were stuck. When I took the high road it had a chance to unfold and life was more pleasant. 2 Reply ©had7 years ago©hada change in perspective has allowed me to be open to the other person’s point of view, thereby making the situation less tense 3 Reply Antoinette7 years agoAntoinetteBy opening up to the isness of the present moment my attitude is gratitude. Awareness transforms the osness with life. I Am grateful for the transformation of awareness within any given situation. 3 Reply Michael7 years agoMichael“Manchester, England, England, across the Atlantic Sea.” The world needs a change in attitude. Stop, see, go and know that peace is the job of all of all of us. Bring it forward in all that we do! It is the assignment of the new generations. 4 Reply Antoinette7 years agoAntoinetteIs that a song? 0 Reply Michael7 years agoMichaelFrom the musical “Hair.” Late 60s, when the peace movement seemed stronger. 1 Reply Anna7 years agoAnnaA terroristic attack Antoinette, maybe 22 people dead, among them even children. 0 Reply Antoinette7 years agoAntoinetteThank you Anna. It’s so heartbreaking. I have been staying away from news and social media for the last week. I was having a hard time dealing with it all a few weeks ago. 0 Reply Aine7 years agoAineWe flow in grief and search for gratitude. Such tragic loss. Such senseless hatred. 0 Reply Michael7 years agoMichaelmy attitude definitely governs my intention, my actions in any situation. without the combination of an attitude formed thru positivity, gratefulness, toughness, and love my actions aren’t nearly as helpful to others nor myself. one of my great basketball coaches had us use T S U as our mantra. Tough (resilient) , Smart (knowledgeable) , Unselfish (love). it served us well then and still today. 2 Reply Kevin7 years agoKevinNow and then a situation will come along that needs to be dealt with head on. There’s no going around it and avoiding it altogether is not an option either. When this happens the operative phrase that comes into play is “attitude adjustment!” I may not like it one bit, but once I adjust my attitude the situation is a lot easier to deal with. 6 Reply Ose7 years agoOseBeginning to open up to love offers the chance to allow blooming again. I don´t know how a situation will be transformed, but somehow this will change perspective to unfolding what has been blocked inside in a way, towards the other and towards life itself which now has a chance to unfold. Still astonished that this happened, and deeply grateful for the gift, overcoming the feeling of not deserving it, to take care of and love to learning to let it unfold to its full beauty towards my loved on... Beginning to open up to love offers the chance to allow blooming again. I don´t know how a situation will be transformed, but somehow this will change perspective to unfolding what has been blocked inside in a way, towards the other and towards life itself which now has a chance to unfold. Still astonished that this happened, and deeply grateful for the gift, overcoming the feeling of not deserving it, to take care of and love to learning to let it unfold to its full beauty towards my loved ones and all around. Read More4 Reply Antoinette7 years agoAntoinetteWonderful Ose, You deserve love and all life’s gifts. It’s beautiful to know these gifts are opening up within you. Allow your light to shine bright. Peace, Antoinette 1 Reply My Private Gratitude Journal Write an entry in your private gratefulness journal Get Started This site is brought to you by A Network for Grateful Living, a 501(c)(3) nonprofit. All donations are fully tax deductible in the U.S.A. CONTRIBUTE https://demo.gratefulness.org/content/uploads/2015/03/GX-Gold-Participant-L.png Community Engagement Guidelines Privacy Policy [email protected] Connect with us on Social Media: © 2000 - 2024, A Network for Grateful Living Website by Briteweb